As most of you know I am not a big fan of living in the house we live or in the villiage that we live in. Well, we thought that maybe we coudl make the house more liviable by redoing the bathroom and kitchen and maybe then we could stay there for a little bit longer at least until the market gets turned around and we may have a better chance of selling the house. We got an awesome quote from my cousin Jason Heibeck. (if you are remodeling he is the man to call) and we were all gun-ho about it. I was finially starting to think that I might make it here for a while and not go crazy..... well that is all in the crapper now! We went to see what we could get as far as a loan and well the answer is we could either get a personal loan at 12% interest for five years and pay 250 a month or we could refinaince and try to sell it to the secondary market for $83,000. THE HOUSE WILL NEVER BE WORTH THAT MUCH! So we are again back to square one and I fell like I am losing it. I am getting very depressed lilving where I am and I just do not know what to do. I feel aweful for wasting Jasons time and am working up the courage to tell him the news and I feel bad about not liking Maple Rapids. (Becuase it is where Joel has grown up) but I have to admit that I am probly the most unhappy I have ever been. This is a time in my life that I am supposed to feel over joyed right? I just don't, I feel stuck in a home and town I do not want to be in. It is a good thing that I love Joel with all my heart because I would have been up and gone about a month ago!
I do not know what to do and I need some advice! I do not want to hear stick it out! I am seriouse I truly feel like I am losing my mind and I do not know how long "sticking it out" will work.
I know you don't want to hear it, but you have to suck it up. It isn't that big of a deal--its just where you live. Do I want to be in Hemlock? NO!! But, when you get married, it is no longer just you. Give it time...the house will sell eventually, and until then make the best of it. Maybe after the wedding you'll have some cash to replace floors and stuff. I wouldn't worry about it until then...
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